dry drizzle

hey out there, my apologies for no updates since last year!

speaking of which, here is a perfect something a friend sent me a couple weeks ago, which put me into the perspective of anyone who has ever tried to contact me; i am so sorry everyone:



speaking of missings, some of you know i have this favorite ball-point pen. and some of you know i've 'lost' it, and it has returned to me time and time again. it's like i am supposed to learn some lesson. well, recently, i thought she was gone for good. weeks had passed and i was sad, but i got over the gamut of loss. and then the pen returned. i immediatedly documented this(with said pen):




i guess i am following the phone/contact apology with this cuz it's related. i'll write a love letter to my pen, when i know you should get one. in a way, i guess that is the lesson to be learned. it's that time when folks turn over their new leaves, where-ever a new leaf comes from in the winter, and maybe it's time i start acting like a human.

speaking of humans, here is some stuff some humans have made, some recent aquisitions:



every so often i like to stop by domy and if i've sold any books, i like to pick up a little something for my library. a collection of doris--which i expect will take me a while to read through. cindy's writings are right on, which is hard to read sometimes. it's taken me a while to read a singular doris zine in the past. also, this kind of billy--it came with a cd (which seems to be the thing everyone's doing) which i have not listened to yet but look forward to the moment of experiencing it. this book plays with identity, which was the hook for me. and lastly, sad animals by adam meuse. i had to. i mean, sad animals!:



what else? want some sketchbook images? fine.





the funny shadows are from my window screen (these are photos), but i think it makes a nice effect.

and finally,
here is a comic i am working on. working on it is like a test of my psyche, which is why i don't feel like i can show even a whole page here. and yes, i seem to be hand-coloring it...also using a brush pen, which is unusual for me.



oh yeah!! one more thing! barekublishing/American Stonghold will be representin' at Staple! march 6, here in austin. come say hi at table 73b!

thanks for stopping by!

so there are crazy coincidences. i have been hesitant to post what i've recently been drawing as it is intended as a (hopefully surprise) gift to an estranged friend. but i've reached a certain spot again in my being. it's since hearing about kerry. that evening i spoke with this friend, who once was lovers with kerry. i wanted to make sure they knew. most of you know i don't like using the phone. and the conversation i had with my old friend was comforting in the timeless connection kind of way, and intense on a few levels--her reaction to it all and the fact we haven't had much communication. and i told them to call me whenever, hoping it would be understood that not only would i understand the feelings and reactions of people involved (some of you know i had a lover with cancer a couple years ago but also that's around the time when those two friends were together, so it has stirred a little extra up in me as well) but that yeah, i am their friend and am open to speaking again. i am sorry if it is confusing if i am being ambiguous abut the identity of my friend. that's just how it has to be for me.
anyway, i thought it was funny that i thought this comic i am drawing would be the reaching out, but the universe has it's own way of working things out. so, i will scan something current soon, now that i feel like i don't need to be completely secretive about it.
here is a scribble i did one day for a warm-up, which i eventually thought was the best comic i've done in months! it probably won't make much sense to most people and is called for a love like brothers. love ya, buddy.





oh yeah...i quit smoking since then too! i feel a ghost of a lost as i didn't realize at the time that my last cigarette would be my last, and it feel like i should have been more celebratory around it, but oh well. the recent news has shaken me around certain aspects of life and it was time i quit being so self-abusive with the smoking. it did serve it's purpose for a while though.